“Yah… what’s wrong with you…? You haven’t talk since lunch… I mean after you ‘taught her math’…”
Youngbae immediately approached Jiyong once their class dismissed… Jiyong was late by half an hour earlier, coming in with his eyes a bit swollen and nose pinkish in color but his friend thought it was just one of those ‘sex effects’ not that he knows anything about it… which he really don’t… so much for being a hot virgin man…
Jiyong didn’t answer but just sluggishly fixed his things with a down expression on his face… his friend curved his brow upon receiving an unpleasant response.
“Jiyong… what happened…? Did you two get into a fight or something…?”
Youngbae’s voice sounded with a hint of worry… he tapped his friend’s shoulder to gain its attention but Jiyong just stood still… back facing him…. and after a while… he saw Jiyong’s shoulder began to tremble… his brow raised higher and without second thought, he pulled his friend’s shoulder for him to face him.
“Yah man…! Are you crying…?!”
He yelled… enough for the people inside their classroom to hear… he quickly looked around, bowing simultaneously while flashing his infamous smiling eyes…as the people started to leave… he turned back to his now hysterically sobbing friend…
“Ji… what’s wrong…? Why are you crying…? I thought you don’t like looking ga-…”
“She broke up with me…!!!”
Jiyong finally blurted out after his long silence… he buried his face on both of his palms and totally slumped on the floor as he continuously cried his eyes out… looking like a kid being stolen by a candy.
Youngbae couldn’t believe what he’s seeing right now… more of amazed on what he's seeing... his bestfriend, pathetically crying over something he can’t understand… was like all new to him…
He gulped down… as much as he want to feel sorry for him... which he still doesn’t know why he should… he just can’t… Jiyong’s state is funny to look at rather being pitied at… but because a true friend Youngbae is… he suppressed his laughter inside… waited for the right time for it to be unleashed and first know and tend his friend’s ‘disgustingly-crying-moment’.
He bent down and tapped his friend’s shoulder again.
“What do you mean broke up…? Dara…? Why…? How… I mean what happened…?”
Jiyong lowered his hands on his knees while looking down on the floor, pouting…
“She… she said…I’m going to kill her… I can’t kill her… I love her… how can I kill her…?!”
He said between his sobs… his body’s even trembling by now because of too much crying…
Youngbae’s brows slowly connected as he continuously bit his inner cheeks just to hold in his laughter…
Jiyong really looked like an idiot right now… more like a wet chick for his face’s all smeared with his tears… but then Youngbae knows something’s really serious is going on… so with all his might he shook off the funny feeling inside him... to think that he never saw this side of Jiyong before…
“I love her Youngbae… I love her….”
He repeatedly muttered as he buried his face again back to his palms.
[Flashback]
“Ba…baby… what are you talking about…?”
He forced out a laugh thinking she’s just kidding with him… which for him is a very bad joke…
He held her hand tighter and was about to start his track but stopped when she just stayed on her spot… he then started to feel anxious with her actions but he stayed cool… turning back and went to her.
“Baby come on… you’re going to be late right… stop playing around… you know we have more time for that later…”
He teased her like he usually do… but she stayed blank… looking down on the floor and reached for his hand that’s tightly interlocked with hers and smoothly peeled it off from hers.
His eyes widen in surprise… looked at his hand and then back to his girlfriend.
“Ba-… baby…?”
His voice started to crack… he’s not liking what he’s feeling right now… it’s as if something’s really going to happen bad which he will not take easily…
“I’m not playing around Ji… we really need to break up…”
She said in a cold tone… first time for him to hear that kind of tone from her he began to panic inside… and much more because of what she just said… his mouth hanged open… his eyes started to sting as tears started to fill his eyes… he never cried before… even felt like crying but right now… it seemed like his eyes knows what to do at this point.
She looked up… and much to her horror… his distressing face welcomed her… she then suddenly felt a pinch inside her chest…
‘Why did it become this difficult…?’ she thought as she bit her lower lip…
She decided to just turn around and walked away but he quickly held her wrist to make her stop.
“Why baby…? Did I do something wrong…? Am I not enough…? Am I still girly to you…? Please tell me… I’ll change it for you… just… just don’t leave me… neh… baby… I’m sorry… please let’s talk about this…”
He pulled her and hugged her waist from behind… totally not letting her go… and just then he finally burst out in tears… buried his lips on her shoulder as his tears rolled down on his cheeks, drenching her shirt… Dara was astonished by how’s his acting but still stood to her decision.
“Jiyong you’re going to kill me if we stay together…”
She started as she tried pulling his arms off of her but he’s really stubborn to let go.
“I can’t keep up with you okay… I always feel tired when I’m with you… I want a normal relationship not just pure fucking… you always say that you love me but I can’t feel it Ji… I just can’t… I can’t continue this anymore…”
He was silent the whole time, only the sound of his sobs could be heard from him… and after a while… his hold finally loosened… she turned around to cup his face on her hands as they both look on each others eyes…
“Ji… I want a boyfriend… not just some fuck buddy… I’m just like any other girl who wants a normal relationship… and I think you couldn’t give me that…”
Her voice trailed off with her last statement… making him stiffened as she slowly let go of his face…
He slumped down on the floor but still didn’t surrender as he quickly hugged both of her legs… this time she snapped out...
“Yah…! Jiyong…! What are you doing…?! Let go of me…!”
“No baby… I won’t break up with you…! I’ll die baby… don’t leave me… we’ll work this out... I’ll change… I promise… I need you…”
He blurted out everything just to make her stay… but unfortunately for him, this just made her more pissed… hearing that he needs her, made her really boiled… needed her just to feed his needs…? Needs her just to have his dick to stick on something..? Needs her just to have his release…? Trails of thoughts immediately filled her mind…
Her brows connected as she shut her eyes tight… gritted her teeth in anger… she would’ve let him pass earlier… almost fell sorry for him… but hearing him saying that ‘he needs’ her made all of those vanished just like a pop of balloon…
She wriggled her legs and kicked her way out… grabbed his hair and pulled his face off her legs… his face is now red because of the pain but he really never let go… even if it takes him forever just for her to stay he’ll choose to be beaten up.
“Yah Kwon Jiyong….! If you don’t let go of me this instant I’m not going to show you the new position I learned…!”
And just like that he quickly let go of her… looked up with a puppy eyes on his face and looked like a total mess because of his tears and boogers… she looked down with disgust and rolled her eyes…
“See… you’ll never change you perverted maniac…”
And with that she turned around and started her track… he was about to pull her back again but his knees gave up on him and he crashed flat on the cold ground… but it still didn’t stop him as he literally crawled his way towards her.
“Baby..”
“STAY…!”
Her loud voice made him stop… with him lying on his stomach on the floor… and with one of his hand reaching for her… they both looked like in a TV drama… less the gross face of him right now…
She didn’t look back… stayed a bit on her spot… with him still behind her… and without any words from her… she then started walking again… leaving him in great despair…
“Dara baby…”
He mumbled as her figure slowly vanished from his blurred vision… his hand collapsed on the floor… he lowed his head… almost kissing the ground as his tears continuously flowed… almost flooding the entire hallway with his unstoppable tears… seemed like this day’s what he’s been preparing for… for all those years that he didn’t shed a tear.
He stayed there… with only the empty hallway knowing how his heart broke into millions of pieces… hearing how his heart cried almost everything he could pour out… The girl that he’s been dreaming of… once he had her in his hand… but just slipping off his chance because of his selfishness… and now all he could do is to drown himself in regrets…
If not for the janitor seeing him sobbing for already half an hour… he would probably stayed there for the whole day trying to treat his broken heart…
[End of flashback]
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